.:Of Exam & Toasting:.

Woohoo hell of a day yesterday, i had this government exam thingy yesterday, and it was very challenging and hard. The sahsiah, minat and the essay was a piece of cake, but the math and iq section was OMG!!!...its been so long since i encountered a math question and as u can guess i was all rusty hahahha. To make things worst, i did not have a calculator with me..dah lah otak karat i have the guts lagi to just kamikaze without a calculator. All in all i think i did good, out of 50 questions im positive that 30 question i scored correct. The essay part was a breeze, i've choose the question that needed me to elaborate on the topic of family instituition- the lack of love in it. When i looked at the question i was like this is so easy, so i poured out my pulitzer-winning writting skills and killer creative mind to it and in the end...i think i did great...(gila ah confident tahap dewa). There were like hundreds of us yesterday, but i did not even make a single friend..no no i am not lansi but they were like cold to me especially the male candidates. I think its the law of nature..look at it this way...if you see a guy who can and is a threat to you, would you bother to smile at them? i definitely wont..being smartly dressed, together with my fuck-me-kanye-west sunnies and speaking english to every question asked, i am sure they thought i was this uber-mtv poster child guy..(which is true) so why should they be friendly to me?? because i know i wont. Futhermore i dont think we travel on the same wavelength. But for the record, i do not wore my fuck-me-kanye-west sunnies to look cool (i am already cool) its just that my eyes are still red and the reason why i asnwered in english is because i want to be above average...im good with the shit so why hide it..true?... no?

Also went to the Maxis toastmasters meeting yesterday and it was love at first sight...i felt belonged there..the place and enviroment is so me!. And met with a bunch of interesting people there, and i made friends with them easily. Maybe because they look beyond what i potrayed to them..and they do not pre judge me so badly. I met with Azlan, who works as a geologist in Petronas and during his ice breaking speech, he moved me to tears, he talked about his uni days in oz, his boarding school days and his childhood..i thought it was all yada yada... but, what moved me waas when he talked about his mom who died a few years back..damn..he was also on the verge of spilling (like wise) and he talked about wanting to live up to his mom's dreams and hope for him..it was pure honesty...i admire his honesty and being a momma's boy i understand..i soo feel you man..so hopefully my ice breaking speech will be as good as Azlan's, this is not a contest but he is good and i wanna be like him..the fact that he is a geologist and 2 years younger than me did not even bothers me a bit..hahahhaha (talk about preassure kan). So thanx to Sarah for introducing me to Maxis Toastmasters Club and i am looking foward to the meetings..

.:Of Hate & Fuck You B.I.A.T.C.H:.

This is a hate entry...not exactly hate but a pissed off one. Anyway i ran into this momfucker last week, in the name of business i was made responsible by the boss to entertain this momfucker. This momfucker looked well read in term of business and it was fun entertaining the momfucker. I managed to score some profitable deals and securing my throne as the number one guy here. I went home and report to the boss the positive feedback and all, as i was smiling the next day that momfucker managed to ruin it when he did not return my text messages and my calls. I was like "pukimak cibai hanjing...ko dah janji and berbagai lepas tuh ko nak diamkan diri lah pulak..typical kurap betul anak haram ni..najis kusta betul"(sumpah marah dalam hatilah kan) I was so furious that even my boss shut all his gap. Damn..i wish the momfucker have the balls to tell me the truth...FUCK LA..I Hate to lose..

.:Of Happy birthday Amir:.

Happy birthday to me, i'll be 25 years old tomorrow and i am thankful to Allah SWT that i have grown up to be a matured, sensible and honest human being. I am also thankful i am surrounded by the most wondeful individuals that have guided me through these years. If i were to named them it wouldnt be enough space, you guys know who you are. All the guidance and love that you guys gave me made me to who i am today. Thank you for being proud of me. I'll always cherish what we've gone through all the smiles and tears. Looking foward to a very blessed years ahead of me with all of you guys hand in hand walking down that road with me. Thank you and only Allah dapat membalas segala jasa baik and the being-being-there-for-me-when-i-need-you-the-most moments. Much Love from me....Amir

.:Of Touchy-touchy & Crush-ing:.

I've read a rather interesting newspaper article yesterday, about us human having less and less human touch or interaction, all because we are too dependant on the electronic media i.e. emails, e-memo, online bulettin, friendster, myspace and instant messaging and sms. I personally think that what the author wrote was true. Im sure that all of us are e-culprits. Take my everyday scenario for example, I normally comes in to work at 9 am(kalau tak lambat lah kan), and the first thing i do is take out my laptop, hook on the internet cable or search for the wifi thingy and immediately open my email. Whether its a birthday notification, death news, complains from clients, request from managers or collegue, pot luck date and even the latest office gossip or drama, are all being communicated thru electronic media. I sometime even email my siblings to tell them the latest family event. We are so caught up with work and work and more work until we forget to just look at the person beside us and just say "hi, how are you today?". These five words would mean alot to that person, we human are social animals, we need to socialize and communicate. I would be very happy if someone would do that to me. It would come out as something very personal and thoughtful to just say hi and just talk. I am so going to do that today, cant wait for lunch time and i'll ask the person that would be standing next to me in the lift afterwards. Hopefully he/she wont see me as this pervert psycho. Hahahah

Another thing is, i am having this serious crush on someone who works next door. I am so smiling like a silly school boy whenever i see her..this is so juve i know. But i cant seem to control it, im always going out just to pass infront of her and give her my cutest-teddy-bear-like smile. I fucking hope it work. God this is sooooo high school. I do not have the guts to ask her out to lunch because i always see her with this (unfortunate looking) guy. I dont think that is her boyfriend because hello?!!!..I wanted my fren to ask her about that guy but thats too chicken shit aight? I like her but i dont like her..like her. This sooo a scene from One Tree Hill, (yeah im chad michael murray and she's sophia bush). I think im afraid to ask her out and to know her more because im scared that she will be a boring person. You know when you have a crush on someone so bad and you tend to have this surreal concept on them, but when reality hits you they SUCK, they'll turn out to be this obsessive bitch that likes to collect vodoo dolls as a hobby. I dont want that. Yeah she's preety and all, but what if she is just preety and nothing else?? Why they dont teach this subject in school, they should have a subject on Male/Female 101: A lifelong Lesson. My collegue told me just go for it because she is giving positive response...he said fuck if she is just preety, just stare her face..Hahahaha thats nice, but im not like that...i need substance in a girl, she needs to have depth. Who says dating is easy, i wish i am superficial so its easy

.:Of Getting Older (If not Wiser) & Where's my Chi Bitch:.

I know its been a while since i last blogged, been busy with work and i dont have any bradgelina-adopt-a-kid-from-timbuktoo or paris hilton-goes-to-jail drama or event to write about. Its been quite mundane and a low key happenings for me all this while. But I promise i'll blog more.

Oh yeah, i got this Government exam thigy coming soon which i dont really know what it is..dont know whether im going or not..I think it soo a waste of my youth (youth kah??) to work in the Government sector where everything is travel at a speed of a snail..even the TM 1515 dial up works faster than the Government servant. Hahahaha. I am sooo going to be banned for this.

My 25th birthday is juat around the corner....yup im getting old. GOD!!! I'm 25 already!!!. Next thing i knew i'll be practicing my akad nikah speech. Hahahah. I think its a loooonnngggg waaaayyyy till i get married. I have nothing yet except my precious Gen 2 which the loan will end in another 5 years. I wmy birthday this year would be a blessed one like before, with birthday wishes from loved ones..that is an ultimate birthday to me.

A dear fren of mine is getting married this year..tak sangka actually...i pray for their happiness and well being..Amin...another one down three to go (Ken, Hafiz and I). Forgot to mention that i have been suffering from Conjunctivitis for 3 weeks now..it is sooo uncomfortable and disturbing..have been to like 4 doctors and 2 pharmacy but nothing is changing...my eyes are not red anymore but it gets itchy when its dry..i am soo depending on eye drops right now. But I went to a specialist the other day, and he said that this is a virus infection thingy...so it takes quite a long time to heal...gotten 3 more eye drop and cream. If this fail, i have to be refered to a hospital, which i dont want to. But i think the drops are working as i dunt feel itchy anymore except the dryness apart from that everything is smooth sailing.

Lets talk about work..i am so facing a work dilemma because i dunt have the this-is-the-job-for-me feeling. Dont get me wrong, I enjoy my work, the collegue and all but hearing that media prima, air asia, fly fm, hot fm, and what not having a job opening makes me excited and want to try out...why i wonder? Am i very typically gemini to have this fickle thing going on? My pay here is quite good, but its all too serious business. I want a fun filled work...hahaha (mana lah nak carik kan). But i dont think what i am doing is wrong..i need to find my 'chi'..